PSYCHOmetrician Board Exam

So, I decided to take the board exam

I decided to pass my requirements on the very last day of submitting requirements.

First hurdle: I WASN'T ALLOWED ENTRY BECAUSE I WAS WEARING SHORTS
I begged the security guard if he could let me in but he was very strict. So, I went around the area and looked for any clothing shops that could be selling leggings or anything. I had to walk a few blocks (take note, I was in an unfamiliar place) just to find a thrift shop. I bought a pair of joggers for 50 pesos and headed back to the PRC office.

Second hurdle: I FORGOT TO GET MY NBI CLEARANCE
When I got to the office and lined up, I overheard some people talking about the requirements needed for the board exam. I was eavesdropping and as she was mentioning the requirements one by one, I heard "NBI Clearance" and my expression quickly turned bad. I called my friend to confirm if we really needed the NBI clearance and she said that we did. So, I called up my mom asking her how much an NBI clearance is and if there were any office nearby aside from the main office at UN. As I left the office, I asked around if there were any NBI offices nearby. One of them directed me to a mall that was a few blocks away. I quickly headed towards the place and got my NBI clearance. I'm lucky that all I had to do was have it renewed and that my name was unique (else, I could get my NBI clearance after a week).

Third hurdle: I LACKED 2 MORE DOCUMENTS
When I got back, I was pretty confident that I had all my documents already. Now all I had to do was wait in line for my turn. It took me 2 hours until I got to the processing window. When it was finally my turn, I showed my documents and the guy asked for my "Certificate of Good Moral". I told him that it was there, but then he told me that I needed 3 in total: one from school, one from church, and one from the barangay. I only brought the one from school because I thought that the other 2 were just options. Good enough for me, the guy was nice enough and told me that I could come back the next day with the complete set of documents, all I had to do was pay for the fee that day.

I hated that day. I was so tired, hungry, and I had to miss work because of that.

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I can't take any review classes because their schedules are always conflicting with my work; which results to me having to resort to self study. I don't mind doing self study, since I saved the PDFs, PPTs, from my previous subjects. However, its still going to be difficult since I don't really have a scope of what is going to come up in the exam. There are 5 major components: ABPSYCH, INDPSYC, ASSESSMENT, SIKOPIL, and THEOPER. The one I believe that I will have most difficulty with would be INDPSYC because the professor that I got didn't tackle theories of Industrial Psychology rather, she talked about the experiences she had in the workplace. I wouldn't say that I didn't learn from that class (in fact, I did learn a lot!), but I don't think that her lessons would help me during the exam. Also, I have a friend taking up the review class in school and she was generous enough to send me the PDFs that they're using in class.

COUNTDOWN: 12 DAYS UNTIL THE BOARD EXAM

I'm currently studying ABPSYCH and I've only tackled 3 topics. I'm taking longer than expected and my work is consuming most of my time. Maybe not work, but the commute going to and back is what takes up most of my time. I'm thinking of bringing my laptop everyday and just study at a coffee shop after trapeze so that I don't waste time waiting for the bus and use it instead for studying. It would be costly though, considering that I'm going to have to eat dinner out everyday and drink coffee too, but this too shall pass.

REAL WORLD

1 week has passed since I started working for FTP. I'm currently adjusting my body clock to the schedule, and my body for the physical aspect that the job entails. My parents still don't give me allowance or commute money for me to get there, so I used the money allotted for my class graduation picture. I have to get better at my swings and swivel hips so that I could be considered for shows in the future. It's kind of pressuring since I'm the only female instructor there.

Overnite

I finally get to work at overnite camp!
I'm actually more nervous than excited about working at overnite because its my first time. I have a lot of preparation to do though, like banners, cheers, training, etc. I'm definitely going to get darker so I gotta stock up on some sunblock.

This is also going to be the last time I'm going to be working for CSC before I go full-time at Trapeze.

That final paper

Had our thesis defense, and passed our final paper yesterday, 4/20.

The defense turn out ok, it wasn't chill because sir kept asking questions, but it wasn't that bad because we knew that all he wanted was to bring out the best in our paper. Unfortunately, we couldn't revise it anymore because of time constraint. We had to have our thesis book bind already and we have less that 2 hours 'til deadline. also, we had to burn some necessary files in a cd. 

I really wish that we had more time to edit our thesis. I really felt like our reader liked it and he really wanted us to refine it. Too bad we had a sucky mentor that didn't even help us in our paper. We did a lot of running for the printing of stuff And when we got our hardbound thesis, we felt really happy. It was our baby. We've gone through so much together as a group that seeing that this is the end just seems so surreal

Back during the first leg of our thesis

Cafe de seoul

And towards the end 

 Alan's condo. we didn't have money anymore

Noel's. After finishing the paper

Cafe Jen. Stayed up 'til 2am to finish the paper

I'll miss this, for sure.

End of my academic life

Yesterday marked the last day of my academic life. I just had my last class at Andrew, where I also had my first class in the university. It was slowly sinking in that my time in the university is about to run out. My last class, ENVISOC, ended with a manifesto delivered by our professor. It wasn't a synthesis of what we've learned, but a plea to use what we've learned to help the environment.

Why do I feel this way?

maybe I'm scared of what will happen after college? maybe I'm not satisfied with what I've learned so far? I mean I dunno, to stop studying after 17 years.. that's some transition. I guess other people don't find it difficult because they've already set their minds for an office setting, which I think is similar to a classroom setting (minus the learning from the mentor part). I guess it'll be more like projects and homework everyday. I know that I'm not following that track in life anyway, so why do I feel this way? I think its because of the time I went on LOA. I think that I'm scared that the same thing will happen to me..the idleness is unbearable. However, I'm gonna continue with trapeze. At least that's something to look forward to.

Although this transition may be scary for me, I believe that it is necessary. I know that learning never ends, but I don't want to stay in college forever. hopefully, I can get that research assistant job and maybe that would make things easier for me.

Also, I realized that one of my thesismates won't be graduating with us since he forgot to take a subject -__- (Persef3).

COUNTDOWN TO THE LAST DAY

I'm down to my last few weeks in college.I just.. don't know what to do with my life. I mean, I've got a plan in my head, but is it the right one? Is it the one that's going to make me happy? I've got my goal on Trapeze already and now with opportunities like being a research assistant popping up, it just make me more unsure of my decisions.

I've always believed that if something makes you happy, there's no reason not to pursue it. So why am I feeling this way?

I'm scared of leaving the security of the University. Which is weird, because I've been working already and I haven't even graduated yet. Maybe I do have a passion for learning? I mean, the time I was on LOA is one of the worst times of my life. But my grades prove otherwise. I'm a slow learner, I admit. But I do love learning new things.

Things are going so fast for me. I want to graduate already, but.. I feel like I'm not ready just yet.. I'm not saying that I want to extend my stay in the University, I just feel that it's going to be hard for me when I do.


Playlist:
Tadhana - Up Dharma Down
Medicine - The 1975
Even in dreams - The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

Research Assistant

A professor of mine posted a status on Facebook

upon seeing this, I got excited and messaged her right away

I got so excited, but at the same time I was nervous. What if she didn't want me? what if she thinks that I'm not good enough? upon weighing the pros and cons, I decided to e-mail her

When I received this, it was like my boat sank, and it hasn't even sailed yet. I know that once she sees my grades, she's gonna be turned off by it and just reject me. I might be able to get in with my recommendations, but the two professors I had in mind are out of the country. The professor left behind here don't know me well.

I knew it was too good to be true. I got so excited over this opportunity. I want to be a research assistant because I want to become better at researching. One day, I'd want to end up as a researcher. Researching is fun, but tasking. I didn't do well in my past subjects because I had to allot time for my other subjects as well. It may seem that I'm justifying myself, but I truly believe that if I could allot more time and effort in research, I'd be able to produce substantial and socially relevant papers. 

All I want is the opportunity to train under someone who is willing to teach me, mentor me. I want someone to take the risk in picking me, and see the potential that I have as a future researcher. I wish an interview is included here, so that I can further explain myself as to why I want this job despite my unattractive grades.

I still haven't submitted my grades and recommendation letters, but I'll still take the chance and just go with it. Besides, what's there for me to lose? (my dignity) Sending my grades will make my chances slimmer, but not sending it would result to not having the chance at all.