2017 in a nutshell

2017 started off bad.
2017 is ending bad.

When Lola passed away early in 2017, we thought that we would end up getting closer as a  family. Ate Lea said that they'd be back for Christmas in Manila to celebrate with us; making it the first Christmas without Lola. But they ended up coming back for a different reason.

Quinito passed away last November 21, 2017. He got into a car accident, which killed him and his girlfriend.

It was all planned out, we told each other that when he gets back for Christmas, we'd drink absinthe (the correct way) and we'd go drinking together. We were suppose to, after a long time, spend Christmas together.

When I saw kuya Joaquin enter through those doors, I cried. It must be hard for a parent to see their child like that, in an urn. ate Lea was worse. I couldn't even approach her coz she was a wreck at that time. The worst thing a parent can experience, is having to witness their child surpassing them in death.

I always thought that Quinito would be the only one that could glue us back together as a family. Mommy and Tita would talk to each other if it was about Quinito.

Life really is strange. As much as I hate where I'm at right now, I know it will bring me to where I need to be. The struggles I'm facing are lessons for things that I will have to endure in the future. I know coz I've seen how my struggles before has helped me with who I am now.

But it hurts.