That final paper

Had our thesis defense, and passed our final paper yesterday, 4/20.

The defense turn out ok, it wasn't chill because sir kept asking questions, but it wasn't that bad because we knew that all he wanted was to bring out the best in our paper. Unfortunately, we couldn't revise it anymore because of time constraint. We had to have our thesis book bind already and we have less that 2 hours 'til deadline. also, we had to burn some necessary files in a cd. 

I really wish that we had more time to edit our thesis. I really felt like our reader liked it and he really wanted us to refine it. Too bad we had a sucky mentor that didn't even help us in our paper. We did a lot of running for the printing of stuff And when we got our hardbound thesis, we felt really happy. It was our baby. We've gone through so much together as a group that seeing that this is the end just seems so surreal

Back during the first leg of our thesis

Cafe de seoul

And towards the end 

 Alan's condo. we didn't have money anymore

Noel's. After finishing the paper

Cafe Jen. Stayed up 'til 2am to finish the paper

I'll miss this, for sure.

End of my academic life

Yesterday marked the last day of my academic life. I just had my last class at Andrew, where I also had my first class in the university. It was slowly sinking in that my time in the university is about to run out. My last class, ENVISOC, ended with a manifesto delivered by our professor. It wasn't a synthesis of what we've learned, but a plea to use what we've learned to help the environment.

Why do I feel this way?

maybe I'm scared of what will happen after college? maybe I'm not satisfied with what I've learned so far? I mean I dunno, to stop studying after 17 years.. that's some transition. I guess other people don't find it difficult because they've already set their minds for an office setting, which I think is similar to a classroom setting (minus the learning from the mentor part). I guess it'll be more like projects and homework everyday. I know that I'm not following that track in life anyway, so why do I feel this way? I think its because of the time I went on LOA. I think that I'm scared that the same thing will happen to me..the idleness is unbearable. However, I'm gonna continue with trapeze. At least that's something to look forward to.

Although this transition may be scary for me, I believe that it is necessary. I know that learning never ends, but I don't want to stay in college forever. hopefully, I can get that research assistant job and maybe that would make things easier for me.

Also, I realized that one of my thesismates won't be graduating with us since he forgot to take a subject -__- (Persef3).